It's times like these you give and give again
It's times like these you learn to love again..."





"If you push through the dark moments when everything hurts, you will find another reserve of strength you didn’t know you had. Know that a high is going to come again." - Courtney Dauwalter
That quote basically sums up everything about race day. There were a lot of highs and a lot of lows all in less than 30 minutes. If someone asked me what's the easiest way to have something slip away because you got into your head too much, it'd be running. This sport is such a mental battle and you either end up really happy or extremely pissed off for a moment right after crossing the finish line. We'll get to the race recap and takeaways in a moment. Let's not skip too far ahead and remember, we did finish another week of training. Here are the numbers from week 5:




After having what felt like the worst workout last Saturday, I felt 110% better after Monday's run. Everything just clicked back into place and I knew I had to give it my all because it was the last week to really test my limits and listen to my body. Come Wednesday, my last speed workout, I knew I had to put forth the most effort possible. I couldn't find my breath and then I get in my head thinking almost immediately that this run is going to suck. Don't do that! Negativity, in fact, kills the vibe real quick. Instead of only focusing on what didn't happen, I checked my stats and noticed I hit all of my 'on' paces pretty damn well. "Okay, you're doing alright", I said to myself. Sometimes you need a little pep talk between you and the mirror. The last two remaining runs felt great. I locked in the thought that I was ready for whatever came on Sunday. My husband cooked my traditional pre-race meal of spaghetti and you better believe I ate two bowls!
My alarm went off at 4:45am Sunday. I woke up more than ready to run. I ate my pre-race oatmeal, I did my pre-warm up exercises, and set out for my warmup run. Coach had me do a specific warm up and it really got me amped up. As I was running, buses passed me that were on their way up to the mountain for the 15k. The sun was rising as I turned back to home and the weather was perfect. I don't think I've ever raced in more perfect weather. It was always really cold or really hot. It was also the closest race I've ever ran, being roughly a mile from the start line. We opted to drive anyway because I knew I wouldn't want to walk home after running my ass off. I lined up at the start around 7:20am right in the front. Hello confidence, where have you been? Never have I ever been in the front. I always thought I was too slow or not good enough. Today, I was not messing around. Right at 7:30am, we were off. Mile one, strong; Mile two, slightly less strong; After that, lost control. This is why I hate when people say "it's just a 5K". It's never JUST a (insert distance). A run is a run. I went into this race feeling super confident and finished feeling defeated. I did not PR. I did not even beat my last 5K time. I slowed my pace down for the last tenth of a mile knowing I failed. Just give me my medal and my free beer. After crying for a slight second and feeling like a piece of garbage, I checked the race results: 26:29, averaging 8:30/mile, 4th in my age group, 11th overall female. Okay, not terrible. I may have not gotten my sub-25 but 11th overall female out of 121? That's pretty awesome.




My friend Jenn gave me a subtle but huge reminder that I hadn't run for two months straight and only trained for 5 short weeks for this race. When you put that all together in perspective, I did run a good race after all. Once I finished, checked out the small expo, and got some free goodies, we headed to get food. I always joke and say I'm going to make shirts for this blog one day that say "will run for burritos" on them. We got our food to go because I wanted to spectate the 15K since they ran right past our street. This is the first time I've ever spectated a race and it's a lot of work! We were cheering and had the cowbell for everyone that came past. It's really incredible to be on the other side of things and makes you appreciate how strong we are as runners no matter how fast or slow you may be. Which brings me to my post-race thoughts. Yes, I sulked about my finish, but after some great encouraging words from my husband, my coach, and my friends, I stepped back to look at the bigger picture. I ran the fastest average pace I had ever done in a race, I still placed pretty high overall, and I felt pretty strong most of the time. My husband, who is my biggest supporter, told me that I need to remember why I do this first and foremost: because it's fun. I run because I enjoy it, not to go out there and beat myself up for nothing. As I watched the 15K racers, I thought to myself, 'damn, us runners are amazing and our community is incredible'.
So, what's next? These next few months, I plan to focus on getting stronger and still building my base. I feel like base building never really stops but there comes a time where you don't focus on it as much. I plan to get more into trail running (I live in Arizona, after all) and enjoy the nature of the outdoors over the treadmill as much as possible. Even when we are not training for a race, we are still training ourselves. It never stops. I do have another raced lined up but that will be announced at a later time.
I don't have a recipe to share because we were just so busy last week and, well, we cooked stuff I've already shared! BUT fear not, I will be trying a new one this week and will most definitely post it up if it's worthy. I do, however, want to share a book I dove into recently. It's a great read even for you non-runners out there. The first few pages alone are inspiring enough to make you want to conquer your own inner demons. Rob's story is incredible so far (I'm on Chapter 3) and I can't wait to see what else has to come. You can check out more about him, his book, and access his podcast on his website: trainingforultra.com.

Going into week 4 of training, I had one thing in mind: crush it. My coach had set a new pace to hit on my speed workout, I was feeling the strongest I had ever felt, and I was also hitting all of my nutrition goals (according to My Fitness Pal, anyway). The weather was all over the place this past week;

Un-fucking-unbelievable. I guess this is the first snowfall Fountain Hills has seen in over 15 years or something? As we drove through town Friday morning, there were tons of cars pulled over on the side of the road with people standing outside of them taking photos and selfies as if they had never seen the dreadful white stuff before. Sure, it's pretty, but only when it's seen far up in the mountains! Either way, we all survived the blizzard of 2019 and now, as I write this, it's 72 and sunny. It's as if our regularly scheduled program was interrupted by a paid infomercial that lasted longer than it needed to. Okay, enough about the weather. Let's take a look at our training recap numbers:




Yes, three runs on the treadmill (
Back to friends being in town. Our friends Kyle and Tania (my designer of all things pretty on this blog) flew into Phoenix Thursday night. It was great to have them here. It almost felt like we were home for a moment. I also love that we have a home large enough to host people now. We adventured to some pretty neat places including Biosphere 2 and went up to Jerome. Although we spent most of the weekend in the car driving places, it was great to spend time with them and see some amazing scenery that even Adam and I had yet to witness since moving here. We're big science geeks and Biosphere was spectacular. To think eight people spent two years inside it is incredible. I doubt the world will ever be as sustainable as it is capable of being because, well, humans are careless, but dare to dream! Sunday, we drove up to Jerome. It's all the way up at 5,000ft and the views are spectacular. It's an old mining town. We had lunch at The Bordello of Jerome. Its history is in its name! It really was a fully operating bordello for the men who mined. Hey, they needed some action too. Amazing food and I highly recommend stopping there if you ever venture up to the small town. I mean, how could you turn down a salad that looks this good:

Another great feature of Jerome is wineries! Well, to be more specific, wine tasting rooms. They don't grow the grapes up there but it was nice to try a wine that's from the state we live in. I learned that Arizona has a designated area for growing grapes to produce wine with. We hit up Cellar 433 to see if it would please our palettes. Spoiler: it did! They have two levels and even have beer on tap for those who may not like wine. I suggest heading downstairs, especially if Tony is serving. Down there, you will find a delicious Syrah as well as some other grand choices. He was super knowledgeable about all of their wines and serves each one in the perfect fashion. Don't even get me started with the views. You literally won't want to leave.

My recipe share for the week is a curry! Probably the simplest curry you could ever make so there really is no excuse not to try it. Amazing taste, not many ingredients, and the best part? It all cooks in one pot! Well, not including the rice. I cook my rice in a pressure cooker so it only takes 6 minutes but you do you! My biggest piece of advice for this one is to cut your carrots small. They'll cook more evenly and won't be crunchy. Don't cut corners by using unsweetened coconut milk either! If your grocery store has sad looking kale like ours does, spinach works just as well. As I said, it's simple, nutritious, and delicious. Peep the photo down below of the final product and click here for the recipe!

I swear, I'll get better at this photo thing. I had my DSLR out more this past weekend than I have in the past five years. Oh 50mm 1.4f, how I missed you.
That's all she wrote this week, folks! Next week is our final four workouts before race day. We'll see how performance improves and what the finishing result brings. I'll also share some of my favorite podcasts that keep my mind occupied while I'm pounding the belt on the treadmill.
First and foremost, happy (late) Galentine's and Valentine's Day. I hope you spent it with someone special; maybe a person or your cat; or a bottle of wine you love more than humans. Either way, spread the love! Galentine's Day is "only the best day of the year" as Leslie Knope would say.

As I've mentioned previously, speed work has never been my strong suit. I like to blame that on never really working on it. Ever. I think I just dreaded the thought of dying while trying to keep upright on the ground at a pace I'm not used to going. But it's 2019 and I told myself I would build the foundation of my running career from the bottom up again and that includes working on speed. Do I want to be the fastest runner out there? Hell to the no. I like to think I'm a 'middle of the pack' kind of runner. Are there still some personal records I'd like to smash before coasting it? Absolutely. Speed work and I will become good friends whether I want to extend that welcoming hand (foot) or not. Week 3 of training introduced my first speed-focused workout in over five months. As my coach said, "it's going to be a real rust-buster" and boy, was it. But first, let's take a glance at the numbers for the week:




Not going to lie, I felt super strong this week. I don't know if it's because I've upped my carb intake by almost 100g or if keeping up with my current lifting workout program has helped (it has). Either way, I didn't drastically fail my first Fartlek workout. I also didn't go into it thinking I would because that only sets yourself up for defeat. When Kristen (my coach) told me my current threshold pace, I literally said out loud "Seriously!?". I think I underestimate myself as a runner all too often and I don't believe I'm capable of the things I do sometimes but damn, this whole thing is working out to my benefit and is really getting me psyched up for race day. But before we're waving streamers in the air and having celebratory drinks, we still have two more weeks of hard work and keeping the mindset level. With a specific pace to hit on the next Fartlek workout and an increase in the number of intervals, we'll see if we proved more successful than the last. Saturday was my longest run of this cycle topping out at 50 minutes. My fellow Volée bird, Jen, back in the Mitten, sent me some Run Gum samples because I was curious how it worked. I tried it before both my Fartlek and long runs. I was honestly surprised at how much energy I felt from just chewing a little piece of gum! I am definitely now a team Run Gum believer and I highly suggest trying it if you haven't. If you click HERE you can get $5 off! Thanks again, Jen! Heads up, Wings out!

As mentioned before, I've upped my carb intake by about 100g. Eating carbs are actually good for you? Shocking, I know. Can you hint the sarcasm? In all seriousness, yes. As a runner (or a normal human being), we feed off of carbs. Eat the right kinds and your body will love you. I'm not a nutritionist nor do I claim to be one but quinoa rocks. It is not only an amazing complex carb but also has a good source of protein. This week, I'd like to share the recipe we prepped for lunch. Of course, it comes from my favorite recipe website, Simply Quinoa. You can click here for the deets. It's a quinoa fried rice with tofu made in my pressure cooker in 6 minutes. You really have no excuse not to meal prep with this one for how quickly it's done. If you aren't rocking the 'No Meat Athlete' lifestyle like I am, you can certainly add chicken or maybe jazz it up with some shrimp.

Lastly, I'd like to leave you with a great quote I shared earlier in the week on my Instagram. It's from the book I've been reading in my spare time, 'Eat & Run' by Scott Jurek. I think it really resonates with me finally coming to terms with enjoying running as a whole and not just focusing on what I can't do but rather what I've accomplished.

Honestly, is it just me, or has this year already gone by fast? Here we are, accomplishing week 2 of training. My goal this week was to set out earlier for my runs. Back in Michigan, I would be the crazy one running the streets of Clawson at 4:00 AM while the rest of the world was still sleeping. While I won't be doing any runs that early (yet, at least), I do prefer the quietness of the night, less traffic, and well, it's just fun to run in my Tracer 360 vest (use my discount code




Clearly, I didn't feel like getting fancy with graphics this week. Still keeping the pace light and slowly building speed. Speed is a word we'll touch base on next week once I face my first Fartlek run in over 5 months. That 5:07 AM start for Thursday made me so happy. I set out very early that morning because I had planned to make a new breakfast dish for my husband and I that involved quinoa. Quinoa for breakfast? Crazy right? I had the quinoa cereal at Tempe Public Market Cafe and it blew my mind away. Naturally, I hit up my favorite website for a recipe that was similar (click here if you're curious for it). I highly suggest trying it.

One thing I did new this week? I went to a yoga class. The type of class I had to get in my car and drive to instead of pressing play on YouTube in my living room. I was nervous because Lord knows I don't know many yoga moves nor am I comfortable doing something I'm not familiar with in a room full of people who are complete strangers. I consulted with my friend and fellow blogger, Stephiee Cowan, who also happens to have her RYT and teaches at Bliss Yoga back in the Mitten, to see what would be best or if this class was worth trying. While I was probably more than half of anyone's age in that room (snowbird city), it was exhilarating and felt so good. It was a Gentle Yoga class that lasted 45 minutes and included meditation toward the end. Nicole, the instructor, was very easy going and so nice to speak with afterward. I definitely plan on making this a new habit and incorporate it into my weekly training schedule. Namaste, my people!
Last but not least and slightly not running related, at least this next part anyway: I got a new library card! Honestly, I'm probably more excited than most about this. Do you still know how to search for books using the dewy decimal system? While I love the feeling of holding an actual book in my hand, I do dabble with the feature of digitally checking books out via OneDrive on my iPad. While I'm transitioning into the plant-based life and always wanting to learn more about running and performance, I've started diving into Eat & Run by Scott Jurek, American

That's all I have for this Tuesday's segment. Bring on week 3!